Seasonal Affective Disorder

Raising Awareness

For the longest time, I’ve wanting to introduce health to my social media but didn’t know how to go about it. As we enter fall, I thought this would be the perfect time to bring the topic onto my channel. The health topic in the video I bring awareness to and discuss is called Seasonal Affect Disorder. In the video I go over symptoms, causes, and forms of treatments. Health is something that has always genuinely interested me and I feel it could be helpful to educate and possibly create an online community of people who deal with certain issues and are able to discuss them openly with one another. If there are certain topics you’d like me to discuss in the future please feel free to leave me a comment. 

Disclaimer:I’m not a trained professional licensed to give medical advice. Everything I say in this video is based on research, experience, and personal opinion. This video is not a substitute for receiving appropriate therapy or medical advice for your particular health needs. It’s simply to open discussion ,educate, and raise awareness.

Love & Light,


Why I Quit Smoking Weed After 10 Years

Out & In The Open

I never thought in a million years I’d ever openly talk about my marijuana usage with people publicly but here we are! Smoking weed and being high always made me feel stupid and embarrassed to talk about although its increasingly becoming more accepted into society. My natural feelings towards that, I believe were a foreshadow of me eventually quitting. I never struggled with addiction like some do because personally it was just a matter of me quitting a hobby. Luckily, I don’t crave smoking weed and am completely done smoking it.

This video was not made to convince anyone to stop smoking. I just wanted to share how it effected my life and why I decided to quit. If society begins to start legalizing it widely, we need to invest in funding research on how the substance will effect us long term. It’s frightening to use something and not know how it truly effects us inside and out. There is a lot of misinformation out there! I believe I saw the effects of it long term and have decided to quit because of those reasons. How we decide to live our lives is a personal choice and I respect others decisions. It’s in my hopes that every person chooses to live in what they consider their best and healthiest version of life. It wouldn’t make sense not to live that way unless we aren’t educated on how to be the healthiest and best form of ourselves. I understand that people struggle because of this but by sharing my personal story I also hope it sheds light in perspective on how to live at your highest level of consciousness.

Love & Light


Beginner’s Guide to Holistic Healing

There are many ways to treat disease or illness and I’m a firm believer in a person being able to heal holistically. This means, I believe holistic healing can cure the most deadliest diseases, such as cancer and AIDS. To some of you, this idea may sound absolutely crazy. Trust me, a few years ago, I wouldn’t have believed or listened about holistic healing either. However, because of the growth of alternative medicine I’ve struck an extreme interest in it. This interest has allowed me to study and explore the possibilities beyond conventional medicine.

This interest doesn’t mean I don’t use or believe in conventional medicine! It simply means I believe there are various forms of healing. It’s up to the person to choose how they’d like to cope or heal with their illness. There is no wrong or right way. I’d like to share why I think others should be more open to holistic healing hence the blog post. Holistic medicine is a ‘form of healing that considers the whole person — body, mind, spirit, and emotions in the quest for optimal health and wellness’. There’s a huge difference between conventional medicine and holistic medicine! Holistic medicine isn’t just about sniffing herbs and doing yoga.. please don’t be fooled by stereotypes.

What’s the difference between Holistic & Conventional medicine?

Holistic medicine involves finding and healing the cause of condition rather than solely alleviating the symptoms. Holistic treatments are based off lifestyle factors and medicinal factors that might be contributing to an illness. Holistic healers can administer conventional medicine but their focus is mainly through natural healing treatments.

The philosophy behind holistic medicine is to maintain or gain proper balance in life. If your health is malfunctioning physically, emotionally, or spiritually it creates an imbalance in overall health. With holistic medicine, we view illness or disease as an imbalance. This imbalance is NOT based around the “chemical imbalance theory“. The holistic imbalance is the idea of a human being made up of different parts that all connect in order to maintain health. When one part is ill, the other parts also begin to struggle.

Modern medicine is designed to treat specific illness and not promote optimal health. Think about all the different types of specialist in conventional medicine such as heart, brain doctors, foot, lungs and more. When seeing a specialist, they typically focus on one aspect of the body. Specialist may then be seen as not addressing the entire health of the patient. After being treated with conventional medicine illness or disease may come back more often due to lack of balanced health practices.

Knowing Your Options

An individual has the choice of treatment with their illness. For some, we’re unaware of how many choices we actually have. Parents teach us how to care for ourselves and we use that knowledge for the rest of our lives. Parents often teach home remedies but they also instruct when one should seek medical care. Unfortunately, medical care we’re taught to seek by our parents may not always be the best option! Growing up, our parents also might’ve not known all medical care options outside of heavily popularized and normalized treatments. When ideas are more widely accepted, we as a society trust that acknowledgement. For example, how many times in your life have you heard to treat an upset stomach with gingerale or sprite? As a child, I knew that it wasn’t helping my stomach but drinking a soda boosted my mood. Now that I look back on it, it was probably just the sugar!

Everyone has issues but knowing how to go about solving them is different for each individual. Because there are a variety of ways to treat disease and illness, there is little evidence in what may be the best suitable option. The best option is to find a permanent solution to sickness and maintain overall health! Using pharmaceutical drugs is not always a permanent solution. Without any form of holistic healing being applied the patient will always be dependent on medicine for functionality or relief. Therefor, never being fully cured or maintaining overall health.

Consider Holistic Healing

Holistic medicine is considered alternative medicine in the United States but is normalized and widely used all over the world today. Many people who question holistic healing are typically uninformed or misinformed. Holistic healing is rapidly growing and becoming more popular because of our current health crises in the United States.

Alternative medicines are that they are typically less expensive and don’t require insurance. It’s important to do research before seeking any medical treatment. Here is a list of holistic treatments and practices in order to give you some ideas about alternative medicine. Don’t knock any method until you’ve tried it consistently!

Types of Holistic Medicine:




Electromagnetic therapy

Sound Healing











Ayurvedic Medicine

There are other forms of holistic medicine, but I hope that by sharing a few here you consider trying at least one! Even if you don’t feel as if you have an imbalance and are quite healthy, practicing any of these methods regularly will help maintain your overall health.

Also, one last thing before you go, I announced on my instagram a few weeks ago that I was planning on opening a business. That business/store will definitely be based around holistic healing and more. I’ve been working on it as much as I can in my free time and I can’t wait to share it with you all!

 with love,



Age Reveal & What I’ve Learned From It!

How I Cope with Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD)


As my blog beings to grow, the more comfortable I become with opening up to my readers personally. There’s always more to the internet persona people portray themselves as. Rarely do we share the genuine side of ourselves here. There’s nothing wrong with creating art or a persona online and it being an extension of yourself. I actually love that we can plug into this virtual world and be whoever we want for a few hours. However, outside of the internet there are real life problems we face daily but don’t typically discuss with others in this virtual reality. Should we start discussing more? Should we be more transparent?

With this post, I’m going to be very transparent and honest because I feel my experience may help others. I don’t like to talk about personal issues on the internet for various reasons however this one’s important. One reason it’s challenging for me to share personal problems on the web is because of my fear of judgement. No one likes to be judged but I can’t let that fear rule me anymore. Other people’s judgements have nothing to do with me.

While going through what I call an ‘episode’ of dealing with my PMDD, I picked up a book called “The Four Agreements” laying around my apartment during a really ugly cry. The book helped me stopped crying but it also helped me gain a new perspective. With this new insight and absence of fear, I’d like to share some of my experiences with PMDD, bring awareness to the disorder, and also what I do to cope with it.

So here goes nothin’, my name’s Raven and I suffer from PMDD..

What is PMDD?

Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD) – “..can be considered a severe form of premenstrual syndrome (PMS). Both PMS and PMDD are characterized by unpleasant physical and psychological symptoms that occur most commonly in between 12-14 days preceding the menstrual period. Physical symptoms such as bloating, breast tenderness, headaches, joint pain, food cravings, mood swings or frequent crying, panic attacks, fatigue, mood changes, irritability, and trouble focusing are among the most common symptoms. Other symptoms like anxiety and trouble sleeping have been reported. PMDD may cause severe, debilitating symptoms that interfere with a woman’s ability to function.”


Periods suck but at the end of the day I personally feel magical because I have the ability to give life. From the beginning of my diagnosis as a teenager, I was always aware that the days before getting my period something was incredibly wrong with my mind and body. While growing and learning about my body, I had two older sisters around that never complained about getting their periods or dealing with PMS. One sister had a heating pad and the other was extremely athletic in the sense she’d always combat her issues in some form of exercise. So of course, I couldn’t understand why this time of the month effected me so badly and why their remedies never helped.

There’s not too much information on what causes PMDD but “studies have shown a connection between PMDD and low levels of serotonin, a chemical in your brain that helps transmit nerve signals. Certain brain cells that use serotonin also control mood, attention, sleep, and pain. Hormonal changes may cause a decrease in serotonin, leading to PMDD symptoms”. Thanks science for not knowing why I feel psychotic before my period!! It’s all good though, I’m a monthly PMDD survivor at this point. The older I get the more I’m able to understand my symptoms and how to combat them naturally. The symptoms change each month my body is preparing for my period. It’s not always a crying dramatic fit, burst of anger, physical pain, or whatever extreme symptom. Sometimes my symptoms can be dormant or they can be heavily present I believe depending on my current self care routine including diet, exercise, and etc.

I began to question my sanity in the days leading up to my period as a teenager. I didn’t know if I should seek mental help or if I needed to go to a physical doctor. It seemed as if no one understood why I was feeling and being the way that I was. People around me kept saying, “someone must be on their period” which made me feel even more insane because I wasn’t. It’s okay to be sensitive while on your period whether your dealing with regular PMS or PMDD, your feelings are valid! It’s never an excuse to treat others poorly during PMS or PMDD but we can share with others more often to help them understand. PMDD has no rule book but according to what causes it, its all about our hormones messing up nerve signals to the brain. Those messed up nerve signals are what makes this a serious disorder. Similar to anxiety or allergen disorders, women with PMDD have no control over their brain disfunction. 

Understanding the Disorder

This lack of control can lead to disaster as I have experienced many times with PMDD. I could never understand my actions and thoughts which drove me crazy in the beginning. There are times where I feel heightened depression, lack of interest, or rage for absolutely no reason. To some that may sound like normal PMS, but to a woman with PMDD, the feelings are much more severe. For example, the other day I was laughing with one of my friends and my body’s reaction was so weird. I started crying mid laugh and it wasn’t because the joke was that level of funny.. My body just sent a signal to my brain that made me cry during a happy moment. I was aware that nothing was wrong but for some unexplained reason I was also crying and now sad. Strange, right? If possible, try to imagine not being able to control something like that while being at your job, school, or with someone you love. It’s not always easy to explain that your body is doing things you have no control over in that moment.

It’s also not always a mood shift or psychological issue that can disrupt daily life for a woman with PMDD. It can also be severe physical pain each month too. I have an issue with bloating before and during the bloody war. My stomach gets so large that it physically hurts and I’m unable to move. Women with PMS also experience bloating but I personally feel as if my stomach is going to explode based off level of pain each time. I could eat 2 cups of organic broccoli unseasoned and my stomach would still look and feel as if I was 9 months pregnant. Broccoli is healthy and good for you and typically doesn’t cause bloating. So.. once again another extreme symptom I have to combat all because my hormones and brain are not connecting properly. Realizing there’s not much a girl can do about mother nature, I sought out different treatments.

Treatments for PMDD

There are different ways to treat PMDD such as antidepressants, hormone therapy (birth control), over the counter pain relievers such as Ibuprofen,vitamin supplements and many other man made fixes. However, I’m partial to modern medicine. Medicine has always freaked me out and I’ll use it when I feel I need to. However, I try to cope with my PMDD in the most natural ways possible. Occasionally, I’ll take a pain reliever such as Midol for physical pain but most of the time my focus is on how I can deal with it naturally. If you suffer from PMDD or think you may have it, I advise consulting with a licensed health professional before seeking treatments. Everyone’s severity with PMDD is different and certain forms of treatment may work better for you.

Tips & Tricks for PMDD Symptoms

Every month my symptoms change and I have to combat each one as they come on during the luteal phase of my period. Of course, these tips can also be used to treat PMS but they’re my go to when I’m having a PMDD ‘episode’. I’ve made a little chart to show how I combat each symptom.


PMDD Pep Talk

We will not let this disorder ruin our lives! We know our bodies better than anyone and know that within a few days everything will return to harmony again. Our bodies may be at war with our brains but that doesn’t mean we can’t win the battle. We’re strong women and can combat any symptoms we’re having as long as we practice them. We’re going to get past the pain or drama each month, learn more about ourselves, and become stronger each time. Fuck PMDD, we got this babes!

Until Next Time,


Disclaimer: I’m not a licensed doctor or health professional. This post is strictly based off my own opinion and experience with intent to help readers make better health decisions after consulting with their health care provider.