My Ego Death & Spiritual Awakening into the Occult

Getting Deep

I started a youtube channel back in 2017 before my Ego Death and I remember feeling like the timing was off. My creativity wasn’t flowing very well. I was always worried about what people would think and wasn’t coming from a good place when I first started creating. I also didn’t know what I wanted to share or what I had of value to others. I didn’t feel I had a purpose back then. Because of my insecurities, I ended up deleting those first few videos in 2017 and decided to come back to it at a later time.

Now, there’s a variety of topics I want to make videos on and talk with others about. My soul is balanced and this video explains how I got to this place.

Love & Light


My Real Name

The Real Me

The internet can be an amazing realm and tool but at the same time it can be extremely dangerous if too much information is revealed. Over the past few years, I had to use a fake alias in order to keep my identity safe. However, I’m no longer afraid of people simply knowing my name. I want people to know it because it holds a significance! This has been a video I’ve been wanting to make for a long time but in my past didn’t feel as if it was the right time. Divine timing is something I firmly believe in and now is the time to create more personal bonds with you more than ever before.

When someone introduces themselves to you, they are no longer a stranger. This exchange of names allows us to connect on a deeper level. I’m no longer a stranger to you today if you decided to watch this video. It’s in my hopes that you subscribe and we can continue to get to know one another through this realm.

Talk Soon,


How to Balance Energy

Practice Makes Perfect

The collective energy feels frantic but persevering today. There may be a million things to do and not enough time but any amount of work is still progress! With that being said, it may be difficult to work because your energy is off. Today I sensed there was a need to remind you to practice balance. So, I whipped up a little guide on one of my personal rituals that could help balance your energy anywhere you are!

There are many ways to manipulate your energy if it feels frantic and is disrupting your flow. Today, I’m just going to share one but there are many different practices out there. This little ritual I have when this happens to me may seem silly  (because you have a mental block) or like you’re not doing it right, but once you start practicing you’ll get back in your proper energy flow for the day. You may even have to do it multiple times in one day, but it works! Be patient and take your time when practicing. Your body will adjust with the ritual with time. 

This is something I personally thought was stupid when I first tried it but the more I practiced, the more it helped me! Remember, tis the Taurus season to slow down. We’ll get to where we’re goin, we just have to take care of ourselves first!

Love & Light


Beginner’s Guide to Holistic Healing

There are many ways to treat disease or illness and I’m a firm believer in a person being able to heal holistically. This means, I believe holistic healing can cure the most deadliest diseases, such as cancer and AIDS. To some of you, this idea may sound absolutely crazy. Trust me, a few years ago, I wouldn’t have believed or listened about holistic healing either. However, because of the growth of alternative medicine I’ve struck an extreme interest in it. This interest has allowed me to study and explore the possibilities beyond conventional medicine.

This interest doesn’t mean I don’t use or believe in conventional medicine! It simply means I believe there are various forms of healing. It’s up to the person to choose how they’d like to cope or heal with their illness. There is no wrong or right way. I’d like to share why I think others should be more open to holistic healing hence the blog post. Holistic medicine is a ‘form of healing that considers the whole person — body, mind, spirit, and emotions in the quest for optimal health and wellness’. There’s a huge difference between conventional medicine and holistic medicine! Holistic medicine isn’t just about sniffing herbs and doing yoga.. please don’t be fooled by stereotypes.

What’s the difference between Holistic & Conventional medicine?

Holistic medicine involves finding and healing the cause of condition rather than solely alleviating the symptoms. Holistic treatments are based off lifestyle factors and medicinal factors that might be contributing to an illness. Holistic healers can administer conventional medicine but their focus is mainly through natural healing treatments.

The philosophy behind holistic medicine is to maintain or gain proper balance in life. If your health is malfunctioning physically, emotionally, or spiritually it creates an imbalance in overall health. With holistic medicine, we view illness or disease as an imbalance. This imbalance is NOT based around the “chemical imbalance theory“. The holistic imbalance is the idea of a human being made up of different parts that all connect in order to maintain health. When one part is ill, the other parts also begin to struggle.

Modern medicine is designed to treat specific illness and not promote optimal health. Think about all the different types of specialist in conventional medicine such as heart, brain doctors, foot, lungs and more. When seeing a specialist, they typically focus on one aspect of the body. Specialist may then be seen as not addressing the entire health of the patient. After being treated with conventional medicine illness or disease may come back more often due to lack of balanced health practices.

Knowing Your Options

An individual has the choice of treatment with their illness. For some, we’re unaware of how many choices we actually have. Parents teach us how to care for ourselves and we use that knowledge for the rest of our lives. Parents often teach home remedies but they also instruct when one should seek medical care. Unfortunately, medical care we’re taught to seek by our parents may not always be the best option! Growing up, our parents also might’ve not known all medical care options outside of heavily popularized and normalized treatments. When ideas are more widely accepted, we as a society trust that acknowledgement. For example, how many times in your life have you heard to treat an upset stomach with gingerale or sprite? As a child, I knew that it wasn’t helping my stomach but drinking a soda boosted my mood. Now that I look back on it, it was probably just the sugar!

Everyone has issues but knowing how to go about solving them is different for each individual. Because there are a variety of ways to treat disease and illness, there is little evidence in what may be the best suitable option. The best option is to find a permanent solution to sickness and maintain overall health! Using pharmaceutical drugs is not always a permanent solution. Without any form of holistic healing being applied the patient will always be dependent on medicine for functionality or relief. Therefor, never being fully cured or maintaining overall health.

Consider Holistic Healing

Holistic medicine is considered alternative medicine in the United States but is normalized and widely used all over the world today. Many people who question holistic healing are typically uninformed or misinformed. Holistic healing is rapidly growing and becoming more popular because of our current health crises in the United States.

Alternative medicines are that they are typically less expensive and don’t require insurance. It’s important to do research before seeking any medical treatment. Here is a list of holistic treatments and practices in order to give you some ideas about alternative medicine. Don’t knock any method until you’ve tried it consistently!

Types of Holistic Medicine:




Electromagnetic therapy

Sound Healing











Ayurvedic Medicine

There are other forms of holistic medicine, but I hope that by sharing a few here you consider trying at least one! Even if you don’t feel as if you have an imbalance and are quite healthy, practicing any of these methods regularly will help maintain your overall health.

Also, one last thing before you go, I announced on my instagram a few weeks ago that I was planning on opening a business. That business/store will definitely be based around holistic healing and more. I’ve been working on it as much as I can in my free time and I can’t wait to share it with you all!

 with love,